Dear Mr. Keating,

Hello. I hope you're doing great and so as your family. Well, I made this letter to express my gratitude for the many times you inspired and saved me.

Growing up in the pop era where boyband fever plagued the world, I have picked Boyzone and Backstreet Boys on top of my list. I guess I have a thing for blondes because I like you and Nick Carter. However, I never knew how talented and incredible you were until you went solo and both boybands disbanded. That time I finally hear the Ronan I never knew existed. Thank you for having the courage to express yourself on your own. I admire your bravery.

Mr. Keating, Thank you for your rendition of "Father & Son" with Boyzone of course/ Yusuf Islam. It was very emotional to listen to. As a daughter, it made me reflect on my relationship with my father, the crazy generation gap, and the mistakes he tried to kept away from doing. It made me appreciate him more. Lately I saw the video, the one with Yusuf Islam, at that time I just finished watching the news and heard the many complaints from parents whose sons and daughters served the military and died in Afghanistan. What was moving was some parents were holding the pictures of them with their sons not as grown-ups but when they were babies. Listening to your song while absorbing the images of those grieving parents made me realize how parents remember their children with love and respect for the moments that they had with them, that peace will be difficult for them if their children died before them. The song and the video was brilliant. Thanks.

Thank you for the song "Long Goodbye" and "If Tomorrow Never Comes". They helped me deal with an excruciating pain of a break-up, wondering if I gave it my best shot or not, hoping that I did! The lyrics of your songs are amazing and the way you deliver them really has an X-factor of pure sincerity. I learned comfort when I heard your songs especially the above mentioned, I felt really relieved after crying my heart out while repeatedly listening to "The Long Goodbye" . I felt understood and that I'm not alone. Through your song you made me feel comforted and hopeful despite the pain of letting go.

Honestly, I felt weird after sensing those things from your songs so I went to see a colleague who is a psychologist. I thought I was going crazy or depressed so I also brought your CDs. To my surprise after letting her hear the 2 songs, she said no I am not crazy and it's either you were really an excellent singer or you were really miraculous voice. Ofcourse I laughed, I never figured you out as an angel though you were through your songs. So Thank you for that.

I've always admired your image as a family man. Through the years I saw how much you love your wife and children and it showed well in your songs. Your rendition of "She believes in me", "This I Promise You", "There's somebody else now", "Superman", and others really made me think WOW! This guy loves his wife so much and she really must've brought out the best in you. I laughed out loud when me and my girlfriends talk about boyzone and we always saw you as the 'womanizer/playboy' along with Shane Lynch but we're all surprised by your music and how your marriage stabilized through the years. We're like "Oh Yvonne is so lucky she got a man like that", "Yeah we like a guy who sings well especially at the shower". "It's hard to find faithful men who looks hot and loves family". Looking back, my friends always thought that my type of guy doesn't exist but now they have to agree that on my checklist, you proved that my dreamboy exists.Thank you for proving them wrong! Thank you, you exists! It may not be you but it made me hopeful there are ronans (maybe not as talented in singing haha) out there who can love me just like you loved Yvonne, of course he doesn't have to be popular haha. Thank you because you loved too well and for you to express that love for Yvonne in a global scale is her blessing and I hope other men will take it as a challenge or an inspiration to do just the same. I always say that on Dad and Ronan Keating knew what it takes to be a man and I mean it.

When you had a come back with Boyzone, it was a wow because I saw how much you and the lads love each other and that they too bring out the best in you. Thank you for making that decision. I guess it's one of Stephen's last mission on earth and you helped it to come true so Thank you. You and the guys finally have unbroken the hearts of your fans who cried gallons of tears when the band disbanded.

Mr. Keating, Thank you for being such an inspiration. Thank you for looking at love straight in the eye and exploring it without fear. Thank you for sticking to entertainment business through the years. Thank you for your heart for charity. Thank you for your unwavering energy and spirit. Thank you for the songs you sing, with most of them you've saved me...And thank you for my hero.

Mr. Keating, rest assured that I'm your fan for life. God bless you and your family.

More thanks,

Anne

There was a wager presented to me. File the case and you'll get everything back.

I look at my little Sky and thought of how easy it will be for us if I take the deal. There were 2 lawyers, one for the civil case and the other for a criminal case. I was told which to file and who to file since they studied the situation too well.

When I heard the first name to file a case, I absolutely agree. He's really the bad person and I hate him so much but it will really take time before the case pushes through since his group of lawyers are ready for negotiations.

When the 2nd name was mentioned and though it will only be a civil case but I still have the option to file a criminal case, I felt sad but I was confident enough that he risked me over his greed. There I was, thinking twice because I pity him.

"You have to fight for the rights of Sky. That's your responsibility" one of the lawyers scolded me when I said I'll think about it.

Yes. I know that but filing a case would levitate more hate and hating him is like hating a part of Sky and I don't want that. He wanted to win the love of his father and I want him to continue doing his best for it even if it means leaving me and Sky behind. When he's older and perhaps Sky will also try to win his love, maybe there he'd understand the joy of a son's love. The evil part of me says, he's merciless and didn't even care about Sky. Let him kill himself. Either way, I have Sky and that's all that matters... Again, I said I'll think about it.

I'm afraid though, that if I will not push through with the case, we won't get enough aid from the clan. Yes I can provide briefly but if something so bad goes wrong, I have no choice but to take the wager.

I know I haven't been writing lately and I refused to write for quite a while. I guess nobody really cared whether I blog or not and it's okay, I really think I'm growing more maturely by keeping things to myself.

Truth be told, that even if I am happily with someone now, the trauma of parting with someone who has been a big part of me haunts me everyday. There are seconds when I feel the power of that goodbye and how we know we're struggling to live apart-- it's painful.

It's like I ran out of words when we parted, as if the pain was so much that it ate all my creativity and all my power over words, and it's as if any great insperation in me was murdered.

My only retreat was silence. There I grieved that bad romance and blindly-folded every happy memory that's worth keeping. The silence in my heart now tells me that I've forgiven him and that as happy as I am now, I will always embrace that silence.

2009, the year when its all been said and done.

1. QC Recruitment Team...Grabe sobrang at home ako sa kanila.
2. Madaming Mukhang Artista-ala Marian Rivera, Lindsay Custodio, Aga Mulach, Hayden Kho at madami pang iba!
3. Si Ms. Andee, parang ako maldita pero very nice!
4. Waaah si Mark Fabie, my crush! Cute cute mukhang Teddy Bear. Mwah mwah
5. McDo!!! Papparappapa Love kno 'to!
6. Si Sir Paul Birdseye, my boss! Sobrang nakakatuwa! He sings well in Filipino! Sama na din si George na boss ko sa US Sales Team.
7. The Team of Marizel Sace- panalo sobrang friendly and professional!
8. FREE Nescafe Coffee dito!
9. Compensation and Benefits are very okay!!!
10. How can forget, si J-Ann Perez, my friend and the person who recruited me!

...Hope, perfectly it is called HOPE.

I remember few months ago how frustrating things were- - losing someone you ought to love forever is not easy and letting go is not an easy task. But Time and God can only be the healers.

On Letting go... I know it's heart but if it's the only way to save your life, do so. We don't live only for today because there's tomorrow. Truly, sometimes Goodbye is the answer/solution. And because you did the right thing, you will see something better. Trust God the let go, he will catch you!

On Suffering... Bear it, then offer it to God. God of all people knows what suffering is. He will comfort you and heal you.

On Living Life...Take it one day at a time, you'll get close to knowing what life is because you really live it.

On falling in love again... Who knows? That is a blessing I am yet to receive in God's perfect time. I can only hope...

I made a decision. I promised to myself that I would never bring a child into this world. I am incapable to bearing the joy of watching him grow and the next I'm drowned in tears cos I have to let hin go... Out there, on that world where I saw things beautiful but not really, they are beautiful but not good just like the devil. Many people are still good people but not enough to make this world a better place for a baby...

It hurts to know that most human beings are really conceived by accident. If it were me, I will have a reason for it. As for now, maybe I'll do more good first and hope that someday tomorrow will be beautiful as I once dreamed.

I still hope that my love, this love will conquer all.

This is by random order...

1. Sir Brian Bantugan, he's the best comm arts professor I've had. Pantapat kay Papa P!
2. Tita Neng, things really changed when she passed away. My life would've been well-guided if she were around up to this day.
3. William, my first love...How I want to be with him once more...
4. Dianne Diaz, this girl really know how to party kahit dalawa lang kami...true friend.
5. Christina Gabriel, my bestfriend... Auditor kaya sobrang busy!
6. Jason Pinto...Super bait na guy. I remember way back in college, isang tawag ko lang when I needed help, he's always there. Packaged deal pa yan minsan kasama si Tim, Randy, at Iris.
7. Anton Wee...Whatever happened that separated us, he'd always be special like the very important blessing he gave to me and it will last for a lifetime.
8. Andrew "Tong" of CSB....This guy is perfectly nakakatuwa, friend sya ni D then once lang namin nakasama but he's so cool kausap and we love the same songs in videoke! I remember when we sang "One more chance" by Madonna. Hahaha
9. Karren Teodosio...Honestly, inspiration ko 'tong friend ko na 'to. I really adore her like a sister. Okay kasama and I like it when she's crazy sometimes, a proof that even the smartest people have their own chaotic moments in life.
10. Liz Martin... Tagal na ng pinagsamahan namin nito. Virgin pa si Nick Carter ng BSB friends na kami nito. Haha
11. Kikoy, ang napaka-cute na anak ni Crystal
12. Christina Buligan, the best dancer of our batch and totoong tao pag nakisama, sexy, matalino, maganda, hmmmm yun sya.
13. Tiny, my fetch friend...I can never open my pains to anyone than to Tiny. Sana magkita ulet kami.
14. Tin Punzalan+Hans...They're also a package deal. They look great together!
15. Bym...Anybody who knows where this girl is, please advise me.
16. Bien Camillo Figuerroa, hahaha the Aga Mulach look-alike na laging partner ko nung Grade 1-Grade 4 sa St. Mary's. I'm not sure if there was a time na crush namin ang isa't-isa. Nakakatuwa lang kasi ang cute namin sa pictures.
17. Harpal Brar- the number one gay on my list na sobrang he gained my respect because of his conviction and commitment to be happy for what he is. An artist in his own way that shows the complex colors of life.
18. Guia Hipolito of PRC- She's not only professionally examplary but also a very true friend because you can trust her with intimate details of your lovelife.
19. Victor M. Endaya, President & CEO of Advanced Contact Solutions.... He is like a father to me. His decision-making is something I admire. I miss our conversations because this man will teach you more about life and success.
20. Ms. Bucayo, my Grade 1 teacher.... She was the first person to make me believe in myself that I am not only beautiful but also competitive in terms of intellect and wit even as a child.
21. My students in COLF- lahat sila minahal ko but things didn't go well with the management so I left. I was not allowed to say goodbye to the kids and it hurts.
22. Arnel Villanueva, my cum laude friend from UP na haaaay before we despise each other but in the end kami din ang nagkasundo... We share same perspectives in life.
23. Tita Victoria, bunsong kapatid ng dad ko. I miss those days when she fix my hair as a toddler.
24. Vinnie Enriquez, wala crush ko lang sya talaga nung highschool.
25. Rochelle Marcelo, I really admire her work attitude in ACS, one of the people that I surely respected in that company. She also opened my eyes to some realities there... Sana maging HR-VP sya
26. Mommy Liz, my mommy in St. Paul
27. Ate Josie Santos, secretary ni Ms. Wynna sa St. Paul. Lagi ako tambay sa area nya way back senior year.
28. Ms. Tagay, my chairperson...She's a literature that is not easy to read but certainly is full of meaning.
29. Anabel Dupalag, I have high hopes for this girl. I am a believer and she never failed me.
30. Katrina Gumabay, I miss her singing voice and of course our friendship...

pag di kasama sa 30, ibig sabihin kasama pa din naman sa 100 hahaha

I wasn't feeling well about how things went out after a business meeting so I went to get myself a freshly squeezed orange juice. Only to find out that I'd get my heart squeezed... I got out of the restaurant and there he is, probably waiting for his driver to pick him up. So I just pretended I didn't see him but to my surprise omg! He called my name and my knees trembled. Shunga pa talaga ako! I acted that I didn't hear him but he followed me and tapped my shoulders with both hands that stopped me from walking away. "Anerine? Kamusta? I heard- - - blah blah blah" I can't remember anything he said, I was too stunned or even scared...Those eyes, kahit nakasalamin na sya ngayon, I can't believe they still care to notice me when I'm around and that smile, dahil ba nakita niya ko ulet? omg! omg! He's still super...

Oh boy sa Contis, Serendra... I was eating my favorite desert cake with 2 of my friends ng biglang umulan and the people on the waiting list entered the restaurant so they won't get wet nang biglang dumating sya....Huwaaaaat???? He's going to buy cake cos it's his mom's birthday I'm sure! And his eyes were really fast too see me. He was smiling and automatic na rin napa-smile ako. Mr. Confidence talaga sya so after he got his take-out order he approached our table and greeted me "Hi beautiful"...Well flirt talaga sya, it's a fact!. I introduced him to my friends and they agree that he's so papable, papalicious, papa talaga! And mega beso beso sa kin when he left. Grabe I miss those days when he kisses my hair or my brow.... I so wish I never let him go.

Binyagan ng anak ng common friend! And we're both godparents. So ayun picture picture. And they know we have a past so what they did was to make me hold the baby and have a picture with him. Aray! Ouch! Ang sakit! Yes it could've been us...What might've been....Shit! Ang sakit talaga sa puso. I could survive one picture taken but to have like 11 pictures na parang pinagkatuwaan kami...My heart didn't just break, natunaw na!

Haay Sometimes crying is an interesting pastime... Cos eventhough I'm with someone else, First love still has the power to rule me. I guess I really loved him.

Sorry but really, today I realized that I'm very tollerable but there are some unreasonable opinions or beliefs that can never be changed no matter how a person tries to open his/her mind. Setting aside differences is not all the time a good option. Magalit na ang magagalit, kumontra na ang gustong kumontra, eto eh bigotry nga. hehe

1. When it comes to dating men, I choose someone with the same skin complexion like mine or lighter. Like begets like that the rule of species (I know! Bakit homo sapiens pa din naman yung mga dark-skinned ah???) Well, here's my number one bigotry. It's color. If a guy is too dark for me unless he's as hot as Mark Nelson, ay di ko sila napapansin. Di naman ako nagmamaganda but it's just it... Bigotry. Sa Dating field lang naman, okay lang sa kin ang black president or others pero sa a bf/hubby ay no way....

2. Race. Through working experience sorry pero mga assholes and feeling all-knowing sila, at walang humility kahit may kapalpakan sila...The Palestinians, ang dami pang mapaglinlang at user-friendly pero sinong inutakan nila??? Hello? Again sorry lang mas matalino at ang Pinoy! So sometimes out of my bigotry, I enjoy knowing that Gaza is being attacked by Israel and knowing that history wise Palestine(Canaan) was never humble to Israel. Bible will tell us that Canaan was the promised land to the Israelites who were slaves in Egypt so Moses or Aaron led them to war so they can conquer Canaan. Rules of war states that Winner takes the land and the assets of the losing side. Well, di nila matanggap...The way I see it, history tells me what kind of race they are. A race that doesn't know how to accept losing-mga Palestinian yan. In other words PIKON!

3. Religion. Eto tabi tabi po... Here's the difference kasi and we can never settle it kahit ilang krusada pa ang maganap at kahit dilubyo pa.... "Islam is a religion where God tell you to send your son to war to die for him while in Christianity, God sent his only begotten Son to die for you and deliver you from evil. Kaya when it comes to men, with conviction KRISTYANO lang ang preference ko. Ok lang friends with Muslims pero di na mababago to.

Actually, madami pa to pero since unreasonable naman pero di na mababago, eto nalang kasi antok na ko!

Loving someone shouldn't be a tiring stuff until you find yourself "lost and out" because you loved too well. That has always been my dillema. That is why I took the pledge of being single for atleast a year. I need to love myself more, make it a habit to love me more so that when I falll in love again, I'm a stronger woman. Now, it's girl-power era for me.

Seriously, I will be there for the church now because God never abandoned me and he makes me see the truth about loving myself, my family, my friends, and someday maybe someone. Basta saka nalang ako magmamahal pag okay na ko at ang sarili ko.

The missing chapters of personal human experience: to be captivated by beauty, to want to love and be love in return while on this lifetime, to chose between duty and personal interest, to let go for a path written in the stars, evenmore so...To let go for a higher destiny not for himself but all of mankind.

Chapters that speaks of the most noble hero, a woman would ever pray for.

Someone who lays his down for you is someone who really loves you.

(Reflections)

For 2 nights I was sleeplessly waiting to watch the Oscars and I am happy for the result. I hope people won't mind my evaluation of the show!!!

1. Penelope really deserves the Best Supporting Actress Award, next would be Amy, the Girl from Enchanted!

2. It was so momentous whe Heath Ledger was awarded Best Supporting Actor. It was the most emotional part of the show I guess... Perhaps, it will be more emotional if Matilda, Heath's daughter accepted the award!

3. I was opting for Meryl Streep to win Best Actress but Kate Winslet, my second bet got it so I'm happy for it too!

4. Sean Penn was perfect for Best Actor.

5. Hugh Jackman is the hero of this year's Oscars. The host/performer/presentor made the Board's money worth it.

6. Having 5 current winners say something for the nominees was really amazing in recognizing their efforts.

7. Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt made the event romantic! The couple really is perfect!

8. Best thing about this year's Oscars is the opportunity and recognition the Academy gave to "Slumdog Millionaire". It was beyond words.

9. Best pair-ups Daniel Craig (James Bond) and Sex & the City's Sarah Jessica Parker then Twilight hottie Robert Patterson and Mean Gils/Mama Mia babe Amanda Seyfried.

10. Whew! I get to see my favorite Nicole Kidman as a presentor!